it's interesting how all you have to do to achieve something, is to tell yourself you want to. and you will. funny how that works. other part of that, is that you actually have to work for it - it won't just happen. every day this becomes more and more clear to me. there's also a point where you realize that there are some things that just won't change, and you have to accept them. it's easy to get swept up in the craziness all around, and not be grateful for what you have achieved. and guess what else? you can't be good at everything. and you know what, that doesn't mean you can't do it all; you just can't do it ALL.
i'm sitting here thinking about me, myself and i, and wondering how i've changed. i read a post from a year back, which is always interesting (and why i write these things in the first place. even if not always as often as i'd like to.) a year ago i was dying to be cast at this school, here i am doing my second main stage show. i can't help but frown at myself when i really think about how all i can do is focus on what i haven't achieved yet... like being in a musical, or having a role, or whatever else my brain can dig up. there are some people who have been leading roles twice this school year, and that's ok. that doesn't mean i won't, or that if i don't, that i can't. i do, however, miss the old days. i've been reminiscing back to the dean days recently, when there was a wonderful foursome of joey, sarah, jen and myself. i want to reunite that group in new york so much that it hurts. i want us all to work, and most importantly to soak up the awesome things life can throw at us.
i really need to be off to rehearsal, but i needed a little blog-therapy. i'll be back more often in the near future. i miss it.